| Florence Lilley 27/08/1918 - 02/12/2009 |
[Dec. 2nd, 2009|12:34 pm] |
My Nan died this morning.
I am now going to tell you about her. Feel free to pass over this but since everyone is at work and my dad and I are the only people who know I need to vent.
My Nan was difficult. She was stubborn and grumpy and seemed to enjoy moaning at and about us. She was a bit of a bitch at times and didn't tend to keep her opinions to herself. (She would also swear in a whisper much to my amusement) She was a terrible cook but would force you to eat every bit! Visiting her was generally something you had to brace yourself for, especially if it had been a while since your last visit as she was sure to shout at you.
But she had a big heart hidden under all that. If you ever needed anything she would give it, and after all the moaning she would make you tea and give you a tenner :D (I actually got that last week along with 2 oranges that she threw at me - No isn't an answer Nan takes very well! 'you don't eat enough fruit and I don't want them' followed by a thud as it hits me in the head).
Basically she was my Nan and I loved her.
I've taken today off work. Sitting through 4 hours of health and safety training is not something I have the power in me to do today. I actually feel better for that but it could be the rum. Now I need to help with some phone calls - except that everyone is at bloody work. |
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| Just in time for hallowe'en |
[Oct. 30th, 2009|09:01 pm] |
I am home and look like the living dead.
I started coming home at 8:30am thursday and arrived at my door 5pm today. This particular journey involved a lot of hours on a truck, a lot of hours on planes, 7 hours in frankfurt airport (5 in terminal, 2 on runway due to computer fail) and some time stuck on the north circular with idiot taxi driver while trying not to be sick.
I am now bathed and unpacked, no longer sick but feeling quite fragile and rather like I may pass out soon, probably should eat as last food was BA peanuts at around 11am.
My holiday was something else. It made me very very happy. |
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| The most expensive date ever... |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|11:07 am] |
I spent £138 getting let into my house last night :|
This does not please me. At All.
Not made any better by the fact that it *seems* I'd been locked out (accidently I'm sure) by my flatmate. Grr.
How do they justify charging that? All he did was flick the latch off using a stick thing through the letterbox.
Anywho, the date was good - although I was an hour late and felt awfull about it! He seemed to forgive me pretty quickly :) Things seem to be going well, no awqward silences (which is a new one for me - I have those even with my friends! Damn my quietness!).
Will hopefully see him again before I go off on my travels (eeeeee! Really excited about that too!) but I have annoying shifts and family commitments too... |
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| 80 things.... |
[Sep. 16th, 2009|08:15 pm] |
So my time is running out! (I have till my next birthday - 342days, 4hours, 25minutes, 23seconds left)
For refernce the (achievable) things I have left are:
Anyone who wants to help me with these please let me know! I need all the pushing in the right direction I can :D
WORK
4. Make an impact at work/change something big
5. Join the BVNA
7. Make actual plans about what kind of business I want to start
8. Investigate becoming a lecturer
9. Do my assessor training after I’ve been a RVN for a year - wont be able to do this before this runs out but I will do it :)
PLAY
2. Get over fear of heights by:
3. Go skydiving
4. Go abseiling
7. Buy a decent camera, learn how to use it and take pictures of everyone I know
9. Go fishing
Expanding my horizons
4. Buy 1 film recommended to me by a friend every month (10/27)
5. Learn a new language well enough to speak it
6. Go to the opera
8. Visit a new museum
9. Do a short course of some kind
10. Accept an invitation to one thing I wouldn’t normally do every month (work permitting) ( - I've not updated this enough to know how many I've done - but I know I've been to a lot of wierd things :D )
Life and family
2. Be in a position to buy a house
4. Write letters to my friends and family
5. Visit every member of my family at least once
6. Go out for a meal once a month
Health
5. Go swimming twice a week for a month
6. Join some kind of class/sport
8. Get within my healthy weight range
Travel
1. Start travelling the world (since starting this blog: Italy (a few times), Germany, America, Bulgaria, soon to do Botswana, Namibia, Austria. Already been to France, Spain, Portugal, Egypt, Israel, Australia, Japan(briefly).
2. Travel Europe (this was backpack accross but I dont see it happening.)
3. Attempt to see the northern lights
4. Get in the car with some friends and just drive somewhere
5. Actally see the sites in London
6. Take some pictures on the Cornish coast
7. Go to the lake district
8. Visit stone henge
9. Save money for the rest of the world:
10. Visit somewhere amazing - one of those once in a lifetime things.
Music
3. Listen to new music every month (done so far)
4. Re-learn, get better at guitar
5. Learn another instrument
10. Try out a festival in another country.
Random
1. Do some vain things ie: my tattoo(done), piercing and hair (done)
2. Give blood
3. Sort out my crap and sell/give away stuff I don’t need
4. See the sun rise and set from somewhere pretty
5. Get naked! Get over my body issues.
6. Find a scuba diving buddy
8. Ask someone on a date
9. Sleep under the stars |
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| Today |
[Sep. 7th, 2009|08:34 pm] |
Right now I realise I feel pretty good today.
I got my bike out for the first time in ages (well charlies old bike because mine was stolen :|) and rode to work and back which felt really good. Went through the park as usual but now things are turning all those lovely shades of dead :D
I love autumn. I know its only the start and really everything dies in autumn but I love it. The world seems awash with colour briefly before it all turns to shades of grey in the winter. And wrapping up warm and going out on one of those 'fresh' (ie. cold but not raining) days is one of my favorite things. Especially if I can duck into somewhere warm for a hot drink or a fire :D
So yeah, my mood is significantly improved of late. My new flat is good, my flatmates seem to get along :D (I've lived with both so this is normal for me - I forget they didn't actually know each other before this ;DD), work is tolerable, I'm going to africa in a month (I had my jabs this weekend - they were owie :( ) and though I haven't done much to improve my weight or fitness I feel more comfortable in my own skin than I have in a long long time.
(just to note - work was untill recently a pile of shit. I actually cried in both sadness and frustration more than once. Lots of people are leaving or thinking of doing so. I did apply and interview for that job I didn't want in the hope of keeping someone else out of it or at least having some sway over how things are run but I didnt get it. I do however have to do that job this week anyway for no extra money or recognition grrr.)
oh I also just realised I only have a year to finish my 80 things list :o shite! |
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| Some photos. |
[Jun. 21st, 2009|10:24 pm] |
I usually use another blog for my life in photos but I have misplaced it so I'll put some here :)
I went to see my daddy today (and my step mum and neice) and after a HUGE sunday roast (I'm still full!) we wandered around leigh on sea for a bit :)
aww :)
And here are some pics from the IOW
And now I'm sleepy from the sea air and food so an early night in prep of my 7am start is called for! |
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| oh for fuck sake. |
[Jun. 8th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
I actually have. had. enough.
So last week was mostly having my car reversed into, working 12 hour shifts then having my car's windscreen smashed (this follows the tyre slashing of last month - actually starting to like humans as a race less each day).
followed by much running around to sort out another car for the weekend (my insurance company are rubbish btw, as are the rac).
Also relief at selling isle of wight ticket for at least most of the face value - only to have them send me bollocks today saying someone hacked them to use ebay - yeah and conveniently listed your adress as the place to send them. I hate that they've made up this shite story. JUST TELL THE TRUTH! I'd be pissed but I'd be happier than I am now. GRRRRR.
Also letter to tell me our pensions are screwed arrived today. nice.
Did I do something incredibly bad to someone recently? Give me a break people!
*is now waiting for something else to happen. I'm terrified to use mums car so I've locked it in the yard at work (which I'm not allowed to do), way way away from any public. I plan on leaving it there until I can get it back home. |
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| isle of wight festival. |
[Jun. 4th, 2009|12:32 am] |
A. Somebody please buy my spare ticket!!
B. The ferry crossing to way to expensive by car.
C. Does anyone know a cheep place I can park near the ferry in southampton?
argh!!
fucking festival. |
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| how expensive!? |
[May. 12th, 2009|07:13 pm] |
I just spent £21 sending stupid paperwork to stupid verifier :|
When did the mail get so expensive!
In other news the RCVS has finally given me a break and have extended my enrolement to the end of the verification period FOR FREE!!! They are doing this 'in light of my circumstances' ie because they know I've been completely screwed over.
Now I just need to fight with the RSPCA HQ re: back pay. I feel that'll be a fight I lose, but am going to attempt anyway :D
Although if they even agree to some time off in leu of all the days I have to spend going into work on my days off to sort this mess out I'd be happy :) |
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| My cat |
[May. 5th, 2009|12:10 am] |
is currently giving one of his painfull 'I love you! here, have some sharp stabby claws in your neck while I lick you with my scratchy tounge' hugs again. Its like cuddles but in a painfull way.
I had a nice weekend if you dont count the tyres and the traffic ;DD
also have discovered am definatly over ... seriously, what was I thinking?! ;DD
I think I'm over ben too - finally! I think this because I actually wouldn't mind seeing him. In a I wouldn't care if I saw him way. I am no longer angry at him. For me that means its over.
Now to find a new plaything. Its been a while ;) |
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| People are arseholes. |
[May. 2nd, 2009|10:02 am] |
some fucker has let down/slashed all my tires. :(
I am blocking someones driveway, I hadn't realised because it was dark and it seems stupid for them to do it because then I say blocking it for longer because I can't move the car now. Idiots.
It has however fucked my day. I got up especially early to go theme parking this weekend, I have peoples tickets and now I'll be hours late because I have to sort this out :(
If I wasn't so tired I'd be furious. |
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| My life as an animal... |
[Apr. 29th, 2009|08:45 pm] |
Its not often these nature tv programs really get my attention, much as I like things like that - they tend to be a bit 'same-y'
I just watched the horse epidose of my life as an animal on the iplayer and it was really fascinating!
The two humans had to live as horses (one with wild exmoor ponys and one with thoroughbreads) for 4 days and in that time needed to really become part of the herd. The interactions between them was just amazing really.
I have a more (I want to say interesting but its really not) 'about me' type subject to blog about that I want opinions on but I'll do that some other time - I've got things I need to do before the end of the day and I've already wasted lots of time watching people trying to be horses ;DD |
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| shit shit shit shit shit |
[Apr. 23rd, 2009|08:42 pm] |
Having slight nervous breakdown about a GIANT spider.
IT's HUGE AND WAS NEXT TO MY FOOT WHILE I WAS PEEING SO I COULDNT EVEN RUN.
So now I have to kill it because its in the toilet and I wont be able to go in there ever again if I dont know where its gone.
Trouble is its close to the side so i'll have to get close to drop a book on it or risk it running (?AT ME!!!)
Fuck, if its gone when I go back I cant move things to look for it, I will actually have a heart attack if it touches me.
ok droped book on it, hope its dead, cant pick up book to check :(:(
I need a drink.
This is ridiculus, I shouldn't be this freaked out but I fucking hate them. It has KNEES!!!!!! thats just wrong. urgh.
This is the first time ive had a big house spider since moving to london. I used to go through this shit a couple of times a day when I lived on the farm. but brave people were there to pick up the books, I'm all freaked out on my own here :(
ok. drink. possible fag. calm nerves. |
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| Laugh at me on the telly :D |
[Apr. 19th, 2009|01:41 pm] |
So good news for the RSPCA, the show animal 24:7 has been given a prime time bbc tv slot.
Bad news is that I was on this weeks show and multiple people have already seen it :|
Its not that bad really - you hardly see me so if you want a short peak into my work have a look on the iplayer http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b00jwbcc/Animal_247_Reversions_Episode_3/
Our hospital/inspectors/vets/me are only on the bits about the puppy. If you want to watch that only its the beginning segment and the end one. I'm the nurse in theatre. You can tell its a long time ago because I'm in student stripes! and that puppy is 2 now :D |
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| I'm naked! |
[Apr. 16th, 2009|06:55 pm] |
Mainly because I have a temperature and I'm trying to bring it down by showering and sitting in the breeze.
I do feel better, less sweaty now (nice.)
Anywho, yes I'm ill. Its been ages!! and I want it to go away now please :|
I have people staying this weekend so I hope I'm not contagious (why oh why can I not spell that!? took my about 10 attempts!) but either way I'm looking forward to the company - I've been sleeping 20hours a day the last couple days and I feel a bit disconected from reality!
going back to work tomorrow though, which should be interesting, lets see if I can make it through the day this time!
I have more importaint updates I should put in here but right now - I cant bring them to mind!
*passes germy kisses your way xx |
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| Alcohol is the answer! |
[Apr. 10th, 2009|07:38 pm] |
Yes.
If I am going to feel like a hungover fool anyway without the alcohol, I thought I may as well give myself a proper reason to feel rough :D
Now to find a soundtrack to drinking on my own on a religous day...
Any suggestions? I'm currently getting a 'festivals I'm going to' soundrack going but could do with something a bit more ?something else?
I might even dust off the ol' guitar I've been ignoring the last decade or so. Means I'll have to cut my nails first though. *where to find some nail scissors :? Then remember how to play. That might prove more difficult. I'll end up playing mull of kintyre or what shall we do with a drunken sailor all night again :|!!
Hopefully charlie will return soon and I wont have to torture myself with that for too long :D |
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| Lack of concentration |
[Apr. 10th, 2009|12:46 pm] |
Cant seem to concentrate on anything for more than 5minutes at the moment...
Not helped by my vision bluring headache that re-appears as soon as the pain relief wears off. I can pretty much time it to every 4 hours with just a dull ache inbetween these times. Add to that the nausia (and other mean things) I get whenever I take pain relief you can imagine the fun my day off has been so far :|
All I have successfully done in the last two days is wind a centre pull ball of yarn. And started and frogged many, many knitting projects because I CANT DOOOOOO IT!!!
I have lots of spring cleaning type things I need to do today but I doubt I'll get round to them :|
RAR. |
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| *sigh* |
[Apr. 2nd, 2009|01:55 am] |
So its been a year then.
I'm not sure I actually feel any better about the whole thing really.
Mostly I just feel sad. |
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| Me, but prettier now :D |
[Mar. 18th, 2009|02:34 pm] |
I can't believe I forgot to post this here, I did almost everywhere else ;DD
I'm tattooed now (finally!)
oh yes and my mums response was ok (someone told her :|) she was mainly glad it wasn't a (and a quote) great big bloody tree at least.
I've neglected to tell her I still plan on having that :D |
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